About your last entry?

I feel the exact same way.

I think anyone who has held hands with any type of disorder can relate to this.

Pink Floyd helps.

i loved this entry. "we are silhouettes of who we used to be."

i can really relate to that.

and the books you read are amazing. shows and books like that keep me from doing things i know will only end badly.

stay well.

xoxo

You are an amazing writer,
and an amazing person.

I can see through your writeing that
you just want to be loved.

I'd love to lay in a field of grass with my bf [if i had one]
I hope someday you find someone that would LOVE to do that with you.

Stay strong. <3
-jess.

your writing is always so beautiful and meaningful... don't really know what else to say to that, but i agree about running into a field of grass. best of luck in everything.

<3adri

i miss you

where did you go???

i want a kitten

i'd call it pudding :)

hello pretty girl.

i miss you.

i finally read this entry. i dont know why, but it always takes me a while to read, actually read and feel, your entries.
i think i may never understand your life exactly, only what you share (and maybe that's how it is with all of us).
but i love the way you feel and the way you throw words and they stick... i dont know if any of this makes sense.

i love you

more than anything. and even though we havent talked in so long, i still love you as much as i did then, and maybe even more because i think i've learned how to love better. and i know that because of this i will always love you. dont forget it. promise me you wont forget that i love you, even if you maybe stop loving me.

I really do love your diary.
This entry was beautiful.
=)

that poem is so beautiful.

<3adri

Excellent choice of a poem.

Chad

you're soooo pretty!  i <3 u and know you're such a strong person, keep fighting! lots of luck.

<3adri

I'm sorry to hear about that......Hang in there.

Chad

Im sorry. I know how bad it feels to be sucked in again.

(That girl is hella ripped....to me. Lol.)

<3 im here with hugs.

always.

Pretty girl, I feel like something for you that i cant explainnn.

i miiiss you.

Yes, you are beyond gorgeous.
please dont hurt your self pretty girl.
It's not healthy :

totally know what you're talking about... i feel the same way about harry potter. i live with the characters. it's definitely more than just a movie/book.

<3adri

butterfly,

it's just a movie

:)

I want your quiet place!  I used to have a place similar in NZ with Nick......I miss that.

Never ignore love it only makes you wonder and be miserable!

i need to quit smoking. thanks for reminding me :)

how are you anyway, sugarplum? i hope you dont think you're always an icicle.  nope.

loveloveloveyou

i need to quit smoking. thanks for reminding me :)

how are you anyway, sugarplum? i hope you dont think you're always an icicle.  nope.

loveloveloveyou

xo

whenever i read your entries, i feel your pain. you're such an amazing writer. i wish i could help you feel whole. :,(

<3adri

Jose Gonzalez is good.

But you, are even better.

Isn't it beautiful how love can be the ultimate perfection yet the most disastrous mess at the same time?

I love the beginning.
I can't write like that.
Unless I'm really sad.

i love jose gonzlez!az! awesome entry.

xoxo

i miss you all the time. i dont know what it is. :|

this was pretty like it always is.

amazing

Nice entry and thank you for your comment. Take care.

Chad

Beautiful entry.
I agree with Sheena.
I miss the cutting more than anything, though.

[xprettyxxpoisonx]

"I miss the things that seperated me from people.
I miss the things that made me whole."

this is everything. in a f***ing nutshell.

i never thought anyone could sum it up in that many sentences. but there it is. right there.

everything. (at least, god, i hope it is.)

we never talk anymore. i miss you so much. i want to feel connected to you in some way, alex. i miss that.

mydeardiary should all be about the helping. yes. a warm and dysfunctional family. thats how i see us.

lovelovelove

My dear, there is no need to thank me.
I'm glad to have been some help.
I am so happy that you, out of all your fans, noticed me.
I am honoured to recieve such kind words.
*
However, it is not my aim for me to read your words.
and to feel something out of them (as much as I do)
but for you to feel,
an emotion out of mine.
*
And I have, to some extent, accomplished that.
*
So let me thank you.
For everything you've ever written, for all your talents you have shared.
And let me tell you, your an inspiration to many.
And that my dear, tells me, that despite the way you look.
Inside you have a heart of gold, inside your beautiful.
and I have no doubt, that you are outside also.
to have impact on so many..
I can't begin to tell you how amazing that is.
How much you've accomplished.
I only wish you could see yourself, as all of us do.
*
I will be here from time to time, but not always.
People can only help to the extent where you have to help yourself.
I have read, everything you've written.
I just didn't seem to have the confidence to tell you these things.
Scared of how you'd see me.
Silly, really.
*
I'd hate to think I'm taking up too much of your time.
Again, good luck on your journey.
it won't be easy, but I promise you things will get better.
We can't have happiness but only pursue it.
It will come.

Yours, Kaori xxx

Thank you for the comment, I appreciate. I hope you're feeling ok tonight. Take care.

Chad

mhm. yes. i know this poetry so well.
thats what makes you a great writer.

i think i have changed for the better.

you are an amazing writer;
i hope things are going okay...
cause it sucks when things are crummy

god bless
-jess

I've been reading your words.
some good some bad, some beautifully crafted.
And I'm sorry to say I'm jelous.
*
I want to be you so badly. Not just for the words, but for the life.
I can't seem to explain it properly.. Without it sounding, horrible?
Your words are as beautiful as you are.
*
I'm telling you, but I know you won't listen and you'll hide behind "thanks" when you think otherwise.
I'll say it anyway,
because even though you don't believe it,
it feels good to know someone thinks it,
even if you don't know why.
But you don't need to know everything about something for it to work.
*
Sorry, I'm just on a train, just a passer by taking interest. Hoping to lose interest in my own life.
*
I hope I havn't offended you, because that wasn't my intention.
But I'll never know because my diaries on private.
I'm not looking for an answer.
I just want you to feel, what you deserve to feel, beautiful.
Yet I know this will do nothing.
So why have I bothered? because your worth the bother.
Because there's that tiny minscule chance you'll read and listen.
And that's a chance I'm willing to take,
especially for you.
*
Please don't delete me off your favourites, I know I seem really strange, but I love your writing, and it get's me through alot.
More than you know.
*
So I wish you luck on everything you've ever wanted or dreamed of.
And I hope it comes to you in one way or another.
*
Sorry for the essay, sorry you feel that way.
Sorry I can't help you.

Nice imagery, you brought it to life, the broken lawn chairs, the beer.What happened? You grew up. The world changed. It sucks someday but it's necessary. Take care.

Chad

ahh. jealousy is a dangerous thing... funny how it still fulfills something at the same time... this entry reminds me of a song called So Jealous by Tegan and Sara.

xoxo

i know your boyfriend loves you, he seems like such a great guy. when you feel jealous, instead of trying to get rid of that feeling, try to immerse yourself in it, feel it completely, and detach it from yourself. whenever i feel possesed by anger, sadness, etc, it works for me. keep working hard.

<3adri

I'm off to bed now, goodnite everyone. Take care, see ya in the morning. A few more pounds wouldn't hurt you. You'd still be attractive. Take care.

Chad 

thanks for the comment
i hope things get better for you
i am sure if your boyfriend truley loves you he will
think that you are beautiful no matter what
-angela

your writing is amazing
always has been
-angela

I'm here. Thank you again for your comments. Take care,

Thank you for your comment today. Take care and we'll talk soon.

Chad

Hey, Just wondered how you're doing today? Take care.

Chad

just keep fighting. the best of luck.

<3adri

p.s. you are so lucky to have a guy that really loves you!!

just know that i love and support you.

seriously.

i'm here for you

"I'm in a wonderful relationship, with a wonderful guy, who is so good to me, he's more than i deserve."

this makes me so happy for you - i dont think you understand how much.

it never gets easier. not ever. it is a struggle, an uphill battle, a constant and that is awful, but...
it is so much more worth it to fight back - to keep pushing that boulder up the hill.

maybe it will stop rolling back down one of these days.

my heart goes out to you.. truely.
I remember a couple of years ago when i first began to read your diary you were pretty bad; almost at a breaking point it seemed.

i know what's it's like so always be searching for more.
i was for awhile, and somehow i found my solution.

now, unlike then; i have a God that fills me up and helps me along durring the day
telling me that i'm not overweight, and i should eat
that things arn't really that bad because everything only makes me stronger.

i was lost til i found this.
it just takes time.

<3

dreaming often helps you realize things you don't want to face in real life.
that can be a good thing; but it can be annoying!

i had a dream not to long ago that my best friend was the reason
[i felt]  that i couldn't talk to my ex, or better known as the guy i still really like.

after i thought about i realized my dream was kinda right, and it put a stall in my friendship.

good and bad.

<3. take care

i hate dreaming.

because i'm pessimistic.

listen to some old music (as in 90's pop, not temptations-esque) and eat some grapefruit and buy some of those slipper/socks from costco and i promise you'll feel better.

then again, i have a tendency to run away from my problems by embracing their opposite instead of confronting them, so that is perhaps not what you want to do.

someones back. =] i've missed you lady.

hey;
i know the feeling you speak of..
though sadly it's the reason i'm not one for da